The question: Does the above picture portray the start of something or the end? I had watched to see if we were going to have any interesting cloud formations last evening. The remnants of the same storms that caused the tornadoes in Oklahoma a few days ago were finally passing over us. I finally gave up on getting any good pictures since it was getting too dark and the skies were mostly just almost solid dark clouds; but, as I was leaving the house to go look at someone else’s vacation slide show, I looked in the east and saw the above, so I went back and got my camera and took the above picture. Since these clouds were east of us, it was the end of something for us, but maybe the start of something for someone else.
That is the way it is with me. If I start something new, it usually means that I need to stop doing something else, or sometimes it’s the other way around. At the moment I’m experiencing the perfect storm. I am undertaking some new volunteer activities that require some creativity and thought, as well as some grunt work, at the same time that I am experiencing some major questions and anxieties about my photography. I had almost reached the decision yesterday to take a two-week vacation away from photography and blogging with the hopes that it might free up some time and clear my mind. The length of two weeks is just an arbitrary period of time and I’m afraid that if I do it for two weeks that it might grow to be longer.
My problem with my photography is that I like to take some types of pictures more than others and those types and subjects often don’t meet. Since they often don’t occur together, I have tried lots of different types using the subjects readily at hand in the hopes that I can find the merger of type and subject that gives me the most joy. I haven’t been too successful so far, but I might be getting closer than I realize. Maybe if I take a break and quit worrying so hard I might see it … or maybe not.
Finally, I have to acknowledge that I have always been a seeker of change. Sometimes I move fast, sometimes slow, sometimes in spurts and jerks, and sometimes in big jumps; so I’m just going to see how it goes this time. When/if I “see a picture” I’ll make it, and when/if I have something to say I’ll write it.